Saturday 15 August 2009

too shy to write...auwww....haha

hmm....i admit its been a really loooooooooooong time i haven't post anything new here. Well, as my workload is getting higher n the dateline is getting sooner...i just can't find an ideal time to update my blog. Too many things in my mind and each of them had got me miserable. Actually, i am not so sure what i'm going to write here is allowed, acceptable, non-offensive...arghh..i just can't think rationally, logically, deeply and on and on...oh man....what the hell am i writng here now???~sigh~ Things at certain parts seemed really good but there's something in a very small part had got me stuck in a very big mess! i am untill now...aduuhai...i always wanted to run away from that particular 'mess-up-ies' but i just can't. Hmm....but anyway, i still want to enjoy my remaining precious time in the UK. I think i can stop thinking about things that will drag my happiness away. All i wanted now is...get my thesis finish on time and plan more trips to Europe. When i'm back to my hometown, first thing i must do is hugging my mum n dad sooooo tight...kissing my two sisters which i missed sooo much, then find my alltime-soulmates (Hanis and Suhana), meeting my old closed collegemates(Nazri n Yusran), Guys...we have a LOTTTT to catch up ya...not to forget, my party-mates(Amy,Adeq,Jurika) dun forget our ladies night plan..it is still on girls as i have promised! just keep waiting till i'm back ocay?this morning..i made a poem, give me feedback if u want to or critics if u have to. The poem means nothing but it still matters somehow......alright viewers,till we meet again! TOTS.


The emptiness

Despite the smile and happy face I show

I feel empty inside and lonely somehow

Tried to recall what makes me falling

Tried to remember what dragged me failing

I always try the best I could for you

Never want to hurt or troubling you

But why things keep going worse and more

Like nothing else left for me to hope for

I hardly insist to get back the old you

Insist to feel I’m still the other half of you

What I see now tells me not to wish further

As I feel I am not being loved any longer

Letting you go is the hardest thing here

As I will always be missing you dear

To retain your love is what I wanted to

But it never works as u never wants it too